Hello...the avid blogger is back again, i decided to started another blog since i couldn't log back to my old page. How sad i know...now i muz search for a new posting board so that my dear friends can tag my board. I thought about so much stuff on my way back from the gym. Was in a melocholic mood, don't know why, when i shld actually be feeling happy after gym, endorphine release. Anyway tots about relationships must have gotten me in such a mood, saw a loving old couple together and somehow i asked myself how do you stay on so strong in a marriage and in a relationship? How is this possible when back then most marriages was arranged. Do we just learn to adapt and eventually get so used to a person's presence that we don't leave at all? Perhaps its true, we are all creatures of habits..look around and see for yourself, our routines, daily things that we take comfort in..look at people in abusive relationship, why is it so difficult for people to just up and leave when abused? Remove the emotional dependence and underneath it is just habit, we are so used to someone, we refuse to change..food for thought guys..
do you remember the any point of time in life whereby you were so sure you knew what you wanted to do in your life? What job perhaps you wanted to apply for after studies? well...i'm not sure now and its a bit scary i shall admit..i feel like a piece of drift wood, and i wonder....it scares sometimes that my tots shift so fast and especially when alone to my own tots, sometimes my tots are quite depressing..hmm...i know quite scary even to me..
anyway i shld say that loads have taken place since my last entry in my old blog. Went out with my cuzzies last nite, together with perseus and anson..interesting but not surprising that my cuz shld mention that anson is cute. heheh...then as expected i bumped into the mauritian guys, bernard and nicolas and priscillia. bernard the happy go lucky dude, a waste that nthg came out of our closeness for a short while, but the more i think abt it i feel we r not suited for each other. maybe i'm trying to kidd myself..but i'm more attracted to nic. Smthg abt last nite was not right...i felt as though nic wanted to say smthg but cldn't becoz of pple ard him..it was just the basic which came out..hi how are you and stuff...there was smthg more that i read thru his eyes..it was like he was impeding me to say smthg else...i dun know like he wanted me to save him from Pris(his ex of 7yrs)..i dun know i understd its tough for him as Pris is staying in under the same roof as him now...(long story why) but its not making it easier...seriously i dun know mate....i just feel that the warmth and closeness then is not felt now...cld it be becoz we havent been msging each other? haiz....
my dear lil sister from work is now somewhere in China, like shenzhen or smthg....wonder how's she doing. She shld be very happy i am finally blogging again..hehehe....
Well all i can say is that 3 new nicks have entered my life since then. Nick lim from work, u will see him in the pic...nicolas the mauritian guy and nick lum the bbc i know tru nic and bernard....quite exciting rite my life..hahaha.....i just want to bang my head against the wall now..hahaha anyway i will stop here and upload a nice pic for all to see...glad to have nick lim in my life..gd friend to have really, his a gd guy just misunderstood.be it on first appearance or whatever. Tomorrow is my big 8km run for Terry fox..yeah finally gg to run this run after putting it off for many years. =) wish me luck!
Till then take care and peace out-sugar outz
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