Ever wonder why people come into your life only at a certain period of time, why some stay and why some don't? Well, many people have come to realise that life is a journey in stages, i can't agree more, but along these stages of life, during our journey, there will always be things to look forward to, friends or rather people who randomly appear in your journey who are there to be your life line, your joy in times of unhappiness or hardship. There will always be something good no matter how bad things get along the way. That flower growing in the pile of shit.
Why the sudden inspiration to blog about this, because i saw Evan Almighty and got hit by a very powerful message in the show. I don't understand how the review could have been bad, but it doesn't matter, i finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. Of late i have been feeling lost, because i seriously do not know what i want to do after i grad at the end of the year,the tot scares me, it still does, i admit i am still feeling list, but at least i have sorted out this much: that i am not going to stay in my current job forever, or for long...i will stay as long as i get the flexibility i need to learn an additional language, and as long as it takes me to train the 2 pple under me to do their job well. Along the way if i am given the opportunity to make extra cash, i will do it, whether i buy my car at the end of the day(ie at the middle of next year) it doesn't matter to me, because if i were to drop the current job and pursue my dream, i know there is no way i can get an immediate 5K to maintain that lifestyle and the car. So it doesn't matter if i get the car, but having the opportunity to choose to buy the car is a Must!
The show taught me that god does answer prayers, he isn't that mean afterall. No matter how testing things can be, there is always people or stuff to help u keep your sanity and to brighten up your day. I am super glad and appreciative to have these people in my life: Nick Lim, Tommy, John, Espen, my Bro(surprisingly, i don;t know y tho), Geraldine my lil sis. And for those who stand on the opposite side, i thank you for making life difficult for me so that i have the opportunity to grow and develop my potential. Thank you for raising hell on a daily basis so that i appreciate the good things along the way. If you pray for patience, god doesn;t give you patience in essence directly, rather he gives you the opportunity to grow your patience. You pray for greater wealth, he gives you the opportunity to earn the money, be it thru 4D or hard work. Don;t you see it: prayers are answered through acts of opportunities. Nothing comes easy and is spoon fed in this world, that's a lesson we all have to master. If we want something, go get it yourself, that's the rule of the game in life ie: God's Motto for us human.
Geraldine came into my life, when i randomly hoped that i could have a closer relationship with somebody, anybody, something to look forward when i go to work, so that i tide myself through the period of transition and adaptation. My prayer was answered by her appearance at my door. Never do i regret speaking the first sentence to her, or how she can just make me smile, by smiling at me. Thank you sis for just being U!
Well, at least no i feel a bit better. I am going to look forward to work tomorrow, because i know that everything and everyone in the office is there to play their part in this giant stage production called Life! I know that i should be hanging in there, because i have stuff to learn still and going back to FF is just going back to comfort zone. I do not want to be earning a miserable pay when i grad at teh end of the year. At least by sticking to what i have now, tho the pay is crap, i can walk away with learning experiences which are priceless. I hope so and somehow i will make myself believe in it, but this does not equate to me not keeping my options open to apply to jobs i want to pursue. U may ask what the hell is A.R. K? well it means act of random kindness. How do you start things, its always thru ARK. When you first choose to reach out to a person, its is ARK. That's what my lil sis, that's what lil nick is doing...everyone everyday has a choice to make your day a good one or a bad one, why choose to have another bad one, when you can have another good day? And even when your starts off wrongly, you can still end it on a good note, because the choice is always in our hands or rather in our minds.
So Look Out World Because Nim Peh Lai Liao!!
Thank You Lil Nick, my Mr Smiley coz i am finally beginning to grasp what you have been trying to make me see: I gotta learn to love myself more, so that i can start to love others unconditionally. If it's not my problem, don't bother, because IT IS Not My Problem!
Gd nite readers....~sugar outz
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